12/22/2006

Bittersweet

I know that I've been whining a lot about how much I have left to do for Christmas, and how stressed I am and all that, but the truth is that I really do love the holidays. I like light displays and seeing little children dressed up for the Christmas program (as soon as I get a chance to sit down with my card reader, you will be gifted with photographic evidence that Hoss really can be an angel). I like the smell of pine trees and gingerbread. I love how the kids' faces light up when they see a full stocking on Christmas morning where an empty one had hung at bedtime. But... This year we made beigli for the first time without needing to reserve any for my aunt. And when I made my annual order with Harry and David, I had to remove her name from the address book. And last night I addressed the Christmas cards, and she is still in my PDA. I didn't usually see Mimi at Christmas anyway- she didn't get out to come to our house for dinner with my parents, and it was hard for me to make the time to get out to see her when we had the kids to bring along and all. But I always sent the card and the fruit-of-the-month basket and she would send her thank-you note where she gushed about the delicious pears and such, and that's gone and it sucks. And I've spent so many Christmases so caught up in my own stuff that I didn't go and see her enough and now she's gone and I can't go back and do things right. So instead, I'm sitting at my desk at quarter after 8 trying not to cry because I'm out of tissues and I don't want anyone in the department to see me and ask what's wrong because it all sounds so...whatever.

1 Comments:

Anonymous nic said...

I just got back from the mall, where I went to Macy's. At Macy's they have rack and racks of the seasonal Snoopy, around every freaking turn. I totally lost it right in the store.

12/23/2006 10:32 AM  

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    Hubby- aka DH My husband since 1995. He is the head of the band department at a college prep school, and dabbles as a wanna-be pop star.

    The Princess- aka DD. Third grader at the local parochial school. Loves butterlies, sparkly things, the color purple and has recently developed a crush on one of the twins from "The Suite Life of Zach and Cody". Is ready for her teenage years, having already perfected her exasperated sigh and dramatic eye-roll.

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